Questions. Always Questions.

First things first: kendo, as always, was awesome. Apparently I'm good at the swings, I'm good at the footwork, but when you put the two together... not so good. Nishigori-sensei took several minutes out of his time in advanced practice to help me work on my foot-stomps... they're very different from what I thought they were, but it makes a lot of sense. Problem is that now I have much smaller strides (since I'm doing it properly), and I can't get it timed with the swings yet... very problematic. But whatever, I'm working on it... and I feel pretty confident about the progress I've made so far. I'd say (somewhat arrogantly, perhaps) that out of the new batch of students, I'm one of the better ones.

Now, as for Andy... saw her again last night, but she was tied up talking to Temor (Tay-more) for an hour, and then I only hung around for an hour, hour and a half to make sure she ate some soup, drank her tea, and then got in bed. Afterwards a frantic jog to the bus-stop (first time I've done Scout-Step in a LONG time), then home for laundry, dinner, and thinking.

See, here's my issue. I know I like Andy... that I really have feelings for her and want to be with her. She knows this (I'm pretty rotten at lying these days, and I've never seen the point). Trouble is that I'm worried that maybe I'm not giving her the space to think about Patrick and her relationship the way she should be... not giving her time to heal before she's ready for another relationship. I mean, I don't think I should stop being friends with her or see her less often, but even the limited amount of physical intimacy we do share (the kissing and hugs, plus the sleeping in the same bed together thing)... I'm worried that it's messing with her head. She can't figure out how to describe it to her friends, and that should be a pretty good indication of something, ne?

But I'm pretty sure if I mention it to her, she won't like the idea of me backing off... and it's not like I want to, really... so I'm left trying to figure out if it's really in her best interests or not. Whether I'm just being silly worrying so much, or whether I'm not worrying enough.

Decisions, decisions... ah well. Tonight (hopefully!) we're going out for sushi, and then after that Andy may come back to my place to crash. That'd be pretty awesome!

Oh! Oh! OH! New Final Fantasy came out yesterday! I'm SO going to go pick that badboy up! YAY!