Time to Take Score.
So, let's see if I can sum this up.
Chantal thinks that I'm crazy and is disappointed that I don't think I deserve more.
Dave thinks I'm crazy and is disappointed in the way I'm treating Andy, as well as the fact that I didn't go for Shauna when I had the chance.
Bonnie thinks I'm crazy and that I haven't learned anything from all the pain I inflicted on her, and is disappointed in me, just in general.
I think that's about it.
I mean, okay, I can't blame them... yes, they're right and I am acting like a selfish child. A remarkably dumb one at that.
But, ya know... it woulda kinda been nice to get even on "Hey... that sucks, man. Sure, Andy may not be the one for you, but it still blows that you have those kinds of feelings... hope you feel better soon" or something like that. I mean, don't get me wrong... I wouldn't trade my friends and their brutal honesty for anything... but I felt crappy before, and every day that passes I just feel crappier.
This... has been a remarkably bad year.
[sigh]
Cheer up, emo kid. Again.
Anyway... Andy and I hung out last night, and that was fun... a solid 45 minutes of DDR (doesn't make up for Harry ditching me and the gym, but at least it was something), then some pretty hella-sweet fajitas (veggie ones... tofu and veggie-ground-beef-stuff... very acceptable), and then a little bit of sitting around and talking. She asked if I was getting in bed with her again and I declined... which left me feeling remarkably lonely, but hey, that's more or less the way I'm supposed to feel. I just gotta focus on Patrick and Andy... THEY'RE happy together, and there's no way I could ever do better than that.
Ooh, and Supernova is supposed to come out tonight. I'll have it for the entire weekend to practice while Andy's "entertaining" Patrick.
[cringe]
Course, I probably won't be in the mood to play it... but that's almost beside the point. No kendo on Sunday, too... this is gonna be a rotten weekend.
Chantal thinks that I'm crazy and is disappointed that I don't think I deserve more.
Dave thinks I'm crazy and is disappointed in the way I'm treating Andy, as well as the fact that I didn't go for Shauna when I had the chance.
Bonnie thinks I'm crazy and that I haven't learned anything from all the pain I inflicted on her, and is disappointed in me, just in general.
I think that's about it.
I mean, okay, I can't blame them... yes, they're right and I am acting like a selfish child. A remarkably dumb one at that.
But, ya know... it woulda kinda been nice to get even on "Hey... that sucks, man. Sure, Andy may not be the one for you, but it still blows that you have those kinds of feelings... hope you feel better soon" or something like that. I mean, don't get me wrong... I wouldn't trade my friends and their brutal honesty for anything... but I felt crappy before, and every day that passes I just feel crappier.
This... has been a remarkably bad year.
[sigh]
Cheer up, emo kid. Again.
Anyway... Andy and I hung out last night, and that was fun... a solid 45 minutes of DDR (doesn't make up for Harry ditching me and the gym, but at least it was something), then some pretty hella-sweet fajitas (veggie ones... tofu and veggie-ground-beef-stuff... very acceptable), and then a little bit of sitting around and talking. She asked if I was getting in bed with her again and I declined... which left me feeling remarkably lonely, but hey, that's more or less the way I'm supposed to feel. I just gotta focus on Patrick and Andy... THEY'RE happy together, and there's no way I could ever do better than that.
Ooh, and Supernova is supposed to come out tonight. I'll have it for the entire weekend to practice while Andy's "entertaining" Patrick.
[cringe]
Course, I probably won't be in the mood to play it... but that's almost beside the point. No kendo on Sunday, too... this is gonna be a rotten weekend.
posted by Marx at 5:54 AM
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