A New Mantra?

I'm going straight to hell. I really am.

I mean, okay, we already knew this... it shouldn't come as a surprise to anybody that knows me. But Andy is so cute... and she likes DDR and she plays video games and she has the prettiest smile... and yesterday while we were waiting for the bus she sat on my leg (not like that, you perverts) and it was a physical trial not to just reach out and hug her.

[sigh]
STRAIGHT to hell.

This is a test. It's God (ha!) testing me to see if I mean it about deserving better than a woman in a relationship... about being willing to wait for the right person to come along. This is a test of me trying to not be selfish and try to get Andy because her being with Patrick is much better for her. She's happy with him... I couldn't make her happy.

Maybe I need to start repeating that to myself... "She's happy. You can't make her happy"... that might help.

And more cold showers. LOTS more cold showers.


STRAIGHT to HELL.