Two Issues.
First and foremost, Patrick is a great guy. Andy's boyfriend Patrick. Very stand-up sorta fella... smart, funny, good looking (the dude is ripped... thin, but not scrawny by any extent of the imagination)... likes video games and comics and anime, likes Jpop, picks up games quickly... not much sense of rhythm, but other than that I find no fault with him.
Makes me kinda depressed. But whatever... it cements my earlier (and correct) belief that Andy is happy, dating a great guy, and I'm going to do everything in my power to not screw this up. Otherwise it'll be just another Bonnie-Jason situation, and that was hard enough the first time. On the plus side, I think he'll fit into the group as well, so my worries about the Post-Thanksgiving dinner (where I invited him just because of Andy) have now evaporated... should be a lot o fun. It was fun hangin' out with Andy, Patrick and Harry on Saturday... I think more people (and therefore better games of RoboRally and Cosmic) will be very good. Ooh, and maybe Puerto Rico... anyway, I'm looking forward to it. Made me feel very lonely afterwards, but that's okay... that's my own particular brand of psychosis, and I'm still really glad I had everybody over and that I got to meet Patrick. Jealous, sure, but it'll pass... and it's much, much better than if Patrick was a jerk. Then I'd be sad and frustrated!
Second issue is the whole Masters thing... the more I'm thinking about it, the more I'm leaning towards accepting the position (if they'll let me... never a sure thing). More free time = good, less time at work = very good, being back at university = not bad. The only real downsides is that I hate physics with a passion and they won't let me TA... I'd love to TA. But whatever... in the grand scheme of things, those aren't such big issues.
I'm just worried that I'll regret it (like I regretted studying physics in the first place, like I regret working here). Because I really, really hate studying and doing physics. Is it worth it to do more?
I dunno. I really don't.
Makes me kinda depressed. But whatever... it cements my earlier (and correct) belief that Andy is happy, dating a great guy, and I'm going to do everything in my power to not screw this up. Otherwise it'll be just another Bonnie-Jason situation, and that was hard enough the first time. On the plus side, I think he'll fit into the group as well, so my worries about the Post-Thanksgiving dinner (where I invited him just because of Andy) have now evaporated... should be a lot o fun. It was fun hangin' out with Andy, Patrick and Harry on Saturday... I think more people (and therefore better games of RoboRally and Cosmic) will be very good. Ooh, and maybe Puerto Rico... anyway, I'm looking forward to it. Made me feel very lonely afterwards, but that's okay... that's my own particular brand of psychosis, and I'm still really glad I had everybody over and that I got to meet Patrick. Jealous, sure, but it'll pass... and it's much, much better than if Patrick was a jerk. Then I'd be sad and frustrated!
Second issue is the whole Masters thing... the more I'm thinking about it, the more I'm leaning towards accepting the position (if they'll let me... never a sure thing). More free time = good, less time at work = very good, being back at university = not bad. The only real downsides is that I hate physics with a passion and they won't let me TA... I'd love to TA. But whatever... in the grand scheme of things, those aren't such big issues.
I'm just worried that I'll regret it (like I regretted studying physics in the first place, like I regret working here). Because I really, really hate studying and doing physics. Is it worth it to do more?
I dunno. I really don't.
posted by Marx at 8:31 AM
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