Tale of Two Phone Calls.
So, last night I spent about two hours talking to Bonnie.
After that, I spent two hours talking to Heather.
It was... enlightening. Talking to Bonnie is like going over my soul with a scouring pad... it's harsh, painful at times, and always leaves me feeling exposed... but at the same time cleaner and clearer. Talking with Heather is a joy... she's got the most infectious laugh. I babble with her... half the time I don't even know what I'm talking about, but that's okay. It's fun.
It's hard to explain, but it was pretty awesome. Things with Bonnie are good, things with Heather are good... both heading in directions that I think I approve of. Bonnie commented about wanting to see Dave and Chantal together (for the record, I agree... I think they'd make a very cute couple, but be damned if I'm going to get them there... that's THEIR job, not mine! Besides, I'm having enough problem with my own relationships to try and mess with other people's)... I hope Chantal warms up to Bonnie. I guess it depends on how things go with us, really... whether I can ever really claim to be over her.
Don't get me wrong. I don't want to be with Bon any more. I know that we're really just not meant to be. But there are still moments when I can close my eyes and see her next to me and I miss her. Of course, currently I do that with Heather too, and in her case I don't believe that we aren't meant to be together... I'm not saying we are, but I'm saying it's at least possible. And she's awesome...
She still hasn't asked to come see me this weekend... and she's only got a few more days before I finalize plans to do other things on the weekend. I'm trying to give her all the time I can, though, in case she decides last minute... but I'd hate to cancel everything else and then just be alone on the weekend. That would suck.
Of course, it might be for the best... but still. I guess we'll see... she still has a few days, and if I have to wait until next weekend... it's not a huge deal. Good things are totally worth waiting for.
After that, I spent two hours talking to Heather.
It was... enlightening. Talking to Bonnie is like going over my soul with a scouring pad... it's harsh, painful at times, and always leaves me feeling exposed... but at the same time cleaner and clearer. Talking with Heather is a joy... she's got the most infectious laugh. I babble with her... half the time I don't even know what I'm talking about, but that's okay. It's fun.
It's hard to explain, but it was pretty awesome. Things with Bonnie are good, things with Heather are good... both heading in directions that I think I approve of. Bonnie commented about wanting to see Dave and Chantal together (for the record, I agree... I think they'd make a very cute couple, but be damned if I'm going to get them there... that's THEIR job, not mine! Besides, I'm having enough problem with my own relationships to try and mess with other people's)... I hope Chantal warms up to Bonnie. I guess it depends on how things go with us, really... whether I can ever really claim to be over her.
Don't get me wrong. I don't want to be with Bon any more. I know that we're really just not meant to be. But there are still moments when I can close my eyes and see her next to me and I miss her. Of course, currently I do that with Heather too, and in her case I don't believe that we aren't meant to be together... I'm not saying we are, but I'm saying it's at least possible. And she's awesome...
She still hasn't asked to come see me this weekend... and she's only got a few more days before I finalize plans to do other things on the weekend. I'm trying to give her all the time I can, though, in case she decides last minute... but I'd hate to cancel everything else and then just be alone on the weekend. That would suck.
Of course, it might be for the best... but still. I guess we'll see... she still has a few days, and if I have to wait until next weekend... it's not a huge deal. Good things are totally worth waiting for.
posted by Marx at 5:50 AM
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