Hmmm.

Well, my father is no longer president of the company. Not the first time this has happened, but I wonder how he's taking it. I guess I'll find out in a bit.

Until that point... last night was extremely good (Kendo, followed by going out to Crabby Joe's). I ate way too many wings, but since it's the first time I've had wings in a few months, I'm trying not to beat myself up over it too much. Besides, we walked home afterwards and had sex, so really, I probably burnt off most of the useless calories I ate.

I'm exhausted today, though... I'm going to go home tonight and try to crash as quickly and completely as possible. Maybe call Shauna. And Bonnie. Damn I'm bad at returning phone calls!

Rushed Post

Tonnes of work to do today, no to little time to post.

Last night = good. Andy was in a good mood again (I love it when she is!), we watched Idiocracy (good movie, funny too), and ate salmon.

Oh, and had sex.

Oh, and bought more condoms. Lots more.
[happy sigh]

Talked to Tracy; might get to see her for a weekend over her reading week. Which would be cool. Maybe I can get her to bring Gabe. We'll see!

Anyhoo, gots ta run.

Good Weekend! Yay!

Well, that was a good weekend, for the most part!

Kendo Friday was good... bruising, but that's not unusual at all. Still feel slow and uncoordinated, but hopefully I'm getting better. I can't seem to hit hard or fast enough... but again, I think it's more a question of me not wanting to hit my opponent very hard. Whatever. I'm getting better.

Saturday Dave and Gabe came down to visit... which was a lot of fun. We played Puerto Rico (which was awesome) and then Railroad Tycoon (which was less awesome... neither Andy nor Gabe cared for it), followed by Super Smash Bros, Guitar Hero, Soul Caliber... all around, good times had by all. Gabe looks unbelievably gaunt, though... but hopefully after his next surgery he'll be feeling better.

Sadly, Andy was in a bit of a bad mood for the last couple hours of the visit on Saturday, but it wasn't too bad... and by Sunday she was in a good mood again (after getting a bunch of her work done). Which is good. She has such a beautiful smile... it really makes me happy to see it.

Oh, and I watched my copy of Final Fantasy Advent Children last night too... besides some questionable subtitling (it's funny... the more Japanese I understand, the weirder the subtitles get!), it was a fabulous, fabulous movie...
[happy sigh]

This is going to be a busy week, though... Kendo tomorrow, pay day Wednesday, games with the French Club Thursday, Kendo Friday and then a trip to Kitchner to visit Andy's friends Paul and Christine, and then back to London on Sunday in time for Kendo... phew! Should be fun!

Blargh. Confused.

So... Andy doesn't want sex as often any more. Like... once or twice a week seems to be about it.

Which is a pity, really... we got off to such a good start! I'm hoping she figures out what's causing it... assuming she's willing to look, of course. Always tricky.

Anyhoo, not much else to report... tired, bitter, and tired. But it's all good. Hopefully we'll get through this... I have faith in her. And I love her, which helps.

Better Night.

So last night was pretty good... didn't make a big fuss over dinner (and didn't spend any money for it either, which is nice). Got a relatively healthy amount of sleep... was in bed by 11 and probably dropped off around midnight... up again at 7, of course, but really, that's not so bad.

Andy had a really rotten dream about breaking up with me to date one of her less-stellar friends named Simon... she was pretty shaken up about it (it doesn't really bother me... I know that most dreams are symbolic, so the "relationship with me" in the dream probably doesn't actually have anything to do with our relationship). I wonder what it all actually meant... there'll be time to figure it out later. I just hope I get some more time to hang out with Andy... and that we have fun this weekend.

Today will be a relatively busy one at work... the CSA guy is coming tomorrow to check out some stuff for CSA-approval.

Oh, and speaking of the weekend... Dave and Gabe are supposed to be coming down for it, so that outta be cool! Board games, vids, and laughter all around... I hope Gabe's feeling up for it.

So... tired...

Okay, okay... I know I sorta deserve this. I mean, it is technically my fault that I started dating Andy before she was completely "ready". I should have waited until she learned to love herself.

Last night we were up until 2am talking about how she was upset by something I said. Big, circular conversations that always orbited around the fact that she doesn't like herself. Or, perhaps more accurately, that she doesn't want to be happy (yet).

By the end of the talks, she seemed to feel better... I think she honestly and truly got some good thinking done in there, but it's so hard to tell sometimes... not for her particularly, but just in general.

I've really got to call up Bonnie and apologize (AGAIN!) for putting her through this... that woman was a saint. A short, little, happy saint. I miss her sometimes...

Anyhoo, so stuff with Andy is still kosher, but man am I exhausted. Like... need to sleep exhausted. Going to find a quiet corner of the office and sleep exhausted.

Going to get my ass handed to me at Kendo exhausted. Ah well. Such is life! Still wouldn't trade it for the world.

Mood Swings

Well, Andy wasn't feeling too good yesterday... we were having a good time until a few hours after Elizabeth showed up... then she just kinda became anti-social.

I have to be honest... this tendency for random anti-social behaviour worries me. I mean, I know she doesn't mean any harm by it, but it can be a bit of a wet-blanket... and since she doesn't really know what causes it, it's not like we can take steps to avoid it or anything.

[sigh]
I do hope she gets over it (or at least figures out what to do to avoid it)... I'd hate for her to turn that way when my friends are around. Ah well... it's still a minor thing. I just kinda feel sorry for Elizabeth... she doesn't come over to hang out with me, and yet I spend more time entertaining her than Andy does.

Anyways, other than that, a pretty fabulous weekend... Saturday I got to spend a few hours with Heather (which was cool) and then several hours with Andy (which was awesome)... I do rather like just chillin' with her around. Wish I got to do it more often, but I have to pay for the appartment somehow.

I've also been spending more time figuring out what I can do to earn my millions... I have a few ideas bouncing around, but nothing concrete yet. But at least I'm thinking about it.

Kendo Fridays!

Well, my last 23 dollars are leaving me today... $15 for kendo (I only had $280 on me, and I owed $295), and 8 for lunch (go Chinese food!).

Which is a pity, really... I was looking as this rather impressive looking bogu bag with a shinai bag as well... "only" $65, but with shipping it works out to closer to $85... and I really, really don't have that kinda money.

Heck, I don't have any kind of money!

Last night was good... the Canadiens won and Andy was in a good mood... I didn't get to play any vids, but I'm not really "upset" at that... videos games were always a bit of an escape for me. I still hope I have a chance to play a bit this weekend... maybe after Heather takes off. We'll have to see.

I was also introduced (via 4chan) to a couple new, extremely well drawn webcomics... sadly, one of them hasn't updated since 2005, and the other only updates once a week (on Saturdays). Still, it has once again reminded me how long it's been since I sat down to draw anything... I really should get back to doing that more regularly. I was starting to get pretty good at it!

That's it... going to re-bruise myself at kendo today (god I love this martial art!), and then hopefully hang out with Andy, Donovan and Ross. We'll have to see!

Busy Weekend?

Well, it looks like this weekend coming up I'll have a visitor from Hamilton... Heather decided that she wanted to come down for a few hours, which rocks! Although it means missing the Intercollegiate tournament on Saturday... which is sorta okay, because I wouldn't be allowed to participate anyway. I did kinda want to go, though... just to watch and cheer on our boys and girls in blue... but such is life sometimes. Besides, I'd rather see Heather... I haven't seen her in... oh... months, at least. Not since the Post-Thanksgiving Dinner, at least!

Oh, and last night Andy was her usual happy self again... which was very, very nice. She's so awesome sometimes...
[happy sigh]

In unrelated news, I don't think I have plans for Sunday, so I do hope that I get some time to play a few video games... yes, I know it's a silly hobby, but I do miss it sometimes. Just like drawing... I enjoy it.

Oh, and I've decided that I'm going to be wealthy before too long. Because being poor sucks. Gotta get started on that.

Dating is SO Educational!

Golden Boy reference for those that recognize it. Anyway.

So, what have I learned last night and this morning?
1. That if Andy is sad after a hockey game, I should call her on it... apparently it'll help her act less silly if somebody points it out. Go figure.
2. If I want something, I should ask, even if it looks or seems like she's not interested. Strange concept for me... I got into bed and she was pretty obviously not interested in anything but sleep... and then she started questioning why I didn't try to kiss her. Huh. Women are strange, strange creatures... but I can learn.
3. Pay more attention to Andy in the mornings. Which is fine by me... I just tend to get into habits that are hard to break. Of course, I haven't really had much time for stuff I wanna do most nights... no video games in over a week now.

However, Andy did prepare everything for dinner last night, which sped up the process remarkably (she even bought groceries!)... which was pretty freakin' awesome.

I love that woman... she rocks!

In other news, Tracy is taking her breakup pretty hard... which sucks. But I do hope she'll be okay. I also still have to get a hold of Gabriel... and I should call Shauna at some point.

Weird.

So... Andy was feeling down again last night.

I'd like to chalk it up to the Canadiens losing their game (they're 4 wins, 8 losses since December 23rd), and I'm sure that was part of it... but I'm pretty sure that it wasn't the whole story, either. She wasn't sleepy when we went to bed... I hope she managed to get a lot of sleep, though (and is still sleeping now... I sorta set the alarm for 9:15 instead of 9, but I hope that doesn't make a big difference... she doesn't have anywhere to be today, which must be unbelievably nice!).

Whatever... her issues, not mine. But I do worry about her... she still doesn't love herself, and it's not like it's something I can really do for her. I just hope that she decides on her own that it's about time to start... but what can I do but offer to help?

[sigh]

She's a big girl... she can take care of herself. I just wish she would... but again, she will when she's ready and not a minute earlier.

And in other news... Heather's coming down this weekend, Dave is coming down next weekend, then we're going to two of Andy's friend's place in Waterloo the weekend after, followed by going to Port Credit the weekend after that... so we're a little busy. Because Heather's coming down Saturday I'm missing the Intercollegiate Tournament for kendo... but I wasn't allowed to participate anyway, so I don't feel that bad about it. And I'm currently carrying around $295 for the kendo people... I hope Ron-senpai shows up at practice today so I can give him the monies!

I wonder in what new and exciting ways I'll get bruised today... oh well! I love kendo... I really do... I just wish I wasn't so slow at it!

Another Week Incoming...

Well, that weekend was pretty good... not fabulous, but certainly not bad.

Andy felt a lot better after we had a chance to sit down and talk for awhile on Saturday... she thinks that maybe she needed a chance to talk and think about the issues on her mind. I'm really glad, too... I'm not terribly fond of being a doormat (I'll do it... I just don't like it). As a result, Saturday night was pretty good... watched Zoolander (one of Andy's favourite movies... go figure), and then went to Leanne's place for the night.

Got up and made pancakes before kendo (I've got to either stop making so many, or start making them better... there's something just not quite right about the pancakes I make... maybe I should learn how to make a good set from scratch... anyway), practice was good (I had my first practice match... all I had to do was not lose... and I lost... a very solid Do hit, followed by a really fast kote hit [I'm still unsure how he hit me... I just felt the hit knew it was a solid one], but the other senpai said I did pretty well. I don't believe them... I just feel so slow and uncoordinated during practice... and there are so many things to remember! But hopefully it'll come with time), and then we hung out with Elizabeth for a few hours... made pizza from scratch and this chocolate-fudge-thing (low fat!) which was really rather good. We got to play some DDR and Guitar Hero... which was really cool... and I introduced Andy to Maya (my "personal trainer"... I think I misled her to believe that Maya was a real person, but on the flip side she does do an awesome, awesome job... I hope they release a "Yourself Fitness 2" at some point!).

And then after Elizabeth took off I worked on fixing my Wireless networking problems and Andy played a bit of Sudoku... oh, and I had a shower, catalogued my bruises (a big one on my right torso, just above the Do protector... and my right arm, of course).

And we may have had sex again.
[blissful sigh]
God damn she's good in bed... I really hope Andy enjoys it as much as she says she does (because I certainly do!).

Another Long Night

Well, Andy seems to be feeling a little better, and that's good... still not 100% sure why she's upset to start with, but she doesn't seem to blame me for it and that's an extremely pleasant change of pace (not that she's ever blamed me for such things in the past... that's just the ghost of relationships-past).

Anyway, was up again until just after midnight talking with her, seeing if we could work through anything... made some progress, so that's good. But she still has a ways to go.

I hope she manages to hook up with Ross after she finishes work today... I know she misses him.

As for me, I've gotta figure out 1. How to get some sleep in before kendo tonight, and 2. How to get my refund from Norton Antivirus and the aborted installation attempt from Futureshop so that I can get my $200 bucks back so I can give $300 to the extremely nice kendo people.

And be broke again.
[sigh]
I'm so sick of being poor.

Anyway, whatever... I'd better get used to it, because I'm going to be more poor after I leave this job. But that's okay. Better to be happy and poor than miserable and slightly less poor.

They Came... They Saw...

Andy Conquered! Go her!

Seriously, though... my parents met Andy, and even my father really likes her. A definite plus! Afterwards, Andy said (somewhat hesitantly, of course) that if I had asked her to marry me last night, she might of actually said yes.

Which is pretty freakin' cool. It's just a knee-jerk thing, though... and I know she knows that. But hey, she is a woman after all...

However, not all was sunny and good last night... Andy ran her SCID test (psych evaluation stuff), which was cool (I now have proof that I'm not psychotic or neurotic... go me!), and after that we had sex (which was also good)... but shortly after the sex, Andy suddenly got very distant and detached. I spent about 2 hours trying to figure out what happened or went wrong, but to little avail... besides the fact that she suddenly felt like the sex was impersonal or it didn't matter that she was there, no leads. Which is weird because she says she didn't feel that way during, only afterwards.
What really scares me is that she doesn't know what it was or what triggered these feelings.

Sadly, it also means I only got about 4 hours of sleep... so I'm really a bit exhausted today. But more worried than anything... I hope she figures out what happened, because it wasn't a very nice feeling.

Anyway, I'm also going to try and strong arm Harry and/or Scott into fixing my computer today, since Futureshop can't/won't. I hope they get it working... that'd be really, really nice. I miss my computer!

Triumphant Return!

Well, I'm back in London... for better and for worse.

The vacation was pretty good... only spent 36 hours around my parents (which was good)... then a whirlwind week away from London (Toronto, Athens, Montreal), which was multiple kinds of awesome.

Spent time a night at Dave's place, which was fun... then a night at Bill and Susan's place playing board games. Finally met up with Andy again (man, it was SO nice to see her again).

We may have had sex on Bill's futon while everyone else was sleeping upstairs. Bill, if you're reading this many years from now... I'm sorry, bro! But it had been like... 3 weeks since I saw Andy! And she's freakin' beautiful!

Also, the sex we may have had (sorry Bill!) may have been awesome.

Anyway. Overall the games and company was incredible (and the gifts!). I gave Dave a copy of Kingdom Hearts 2, with the understanding that I get to play it after he's finished (hopefully a few weeks!). Dave and Chantal got me a really surprisingly nice Go board... ceramic stones and everything! I'm content.

Oh, and Andy made me a paper Prince (from Katamari Damacy)... so freakin' cool.
Best. Girlfriend. Ever.

Anyway, after Bill's, we went off to Montreal. Had tonnes of fun... visited Andy's friends, ate good food, slept in late. All in all, a remarkably pleasant way to spend a handful of days... came back to London on Thursday, and spent a few days shopping and chillin'.

Now, while we didn't have sex in Montreal (an inappropriate time of the month), we made up for it when we got back here... between Friday and Sunday night, it worked out to an average of sex every 5-6 hours.

I haven't grinned this much in... well... years, at least!

Enough of the gory details... Andy's a bit worried about April (to be honest, so am I... I keep going over my finances, but my money just isn't going as far as I need or want it to every month), but I think things will work out. Neither of us are slackers or lazy by nature... we both want to accomplish great things, and I think we can.

Last note: Kendo tomorrow (yay!). So basically life is good!