A Modest Proposal.

Well, Kat said that she'd be willing to come down to London on Friday if I wanted to catch a movie "and stuff"... hmmm, I THINK I know what that means. Nudge - nudge.
{sigh}

Don't get me wrong... I am sorta flattered that after all this time, she's still attracted to me that way... and, let's face it, I have been bemoaning how lonely and... {cough} pent up I have been recently.

But the problem (HA! Like there's only one...) is that I don't particularly find myself attracted to Kat any more. I mean... she is a psychohose beast and all. A very talented and willing psychohose beast, but a psychohose beast nonetheless. And she's put on a lot of weight. And she's so emotionally draining to be around.

You'd think this would be an easy decision... you'd think.

Part of it is that as psychotic as Kat may be at times, I still want her to be happy. She was so beautiful when she was happy... she had an awesome smile, her laugh was a little loud but it was honest, and she was just a positive person to be around. These days... she's not. Like a little blackhole or something... cruel, petty, selfish...
{sigh}
I would really love to see her go back to somebody closer to who she used to be.

The really ironic thing is that she seems convinced that she's a better person now... can't understand why her friends keep ditching her or why bad things keep happening.

Anyway, this is all beside the point... the moral of the story is I have to decide what I'm going to do to help. Even if it's only a little.

Hmmm. I'll have to think about that a bit... diplomacy is always such a tricky little thing!