Turn around is fair play.

You ever meet one of those people that just gets under your skin and drives you insane?
Yeah, I have... her name is Kat. And she's my ex-girlfriend. Oh, irony, your name is... uh... Irony.

Anyway.

So, yeah, when we used to date she was pretty cool... but shortly after she got into University, everything changed. She became more and more self-centered, arrogant, conceited... and, like most people of that type, she has also become incredibly insecure. I would say she's become immature, but that's a lie... she's always been pretty immature.

Now, I realize I'm not exactly a bastion of maturity myself... but at least I acknowledge it. I know it's a fault and I'm working very hard on it... it drives me insane occasionally, but I think it's honestly important. I want to be a better person... I hope I can become one. That'd be nice.

Anyway, it's my birthday soon (a couple weeks, I think), and Kat has been sending me birthday wishes specifically because she knows I don't enjoy it. It would be sweet of her if it weren't for the fact she's really doing it because it bugs me... but whatever. I've wasted too much of my time thinking about her already.

My weekend was good... Heather has become impossible to separate from her significant other. I'm very happy for her, really... I just think it's unfortunate that when I ask "So how are you doing?", her reply is always "We're doing fine."
Maybe that's the way it's supposed to work... the concept of the individual lost to the concept of the pair. The couple. It resonates wrong with me... but I haven't been in a healthy relationship for years and years, so I'm not about to throw stones. I just wish I knew that Heather is really happy... she seems that way, so I'm going to have to just trust her, I suppose.

Lastly, Bonnie didn't talk to me very long last night. Shouldn't upset me... she has a lot of studying to do (even though Kat claims they don't have any exams or tests for the next 3 weeks, I'm more inclined to believe Bon). But it does upset me... again, I don't know why (sure, I'm not completely over her, but I don't think that's it entirely). It's not as bad as it used to be, though... fewer knots in my stomach, and they're much smaller. More of a... well, I wasn't upset so much as just sad. I like talking with Bonnie... makes me feel more... human, I guess. And while I don't think she's going to stop being friends with me or anything, I do know that my role in her life is probably going to get smaller and smaller... she's destined for great things.
I do miss her, though... I gotta remember to call her more often. She still makes me smile... even if we're not "meant" to be together.

I was trying to think of a funny quote to end this post on, but nothing is coming to me... not even Firefly quotes, and that's a bad sign. Ah well. Hopefully after I get some sleep tonight I'll be in a better mood tomorrow.