Stupid Money

I hate having to think about money. I hate it. I hate how it dictates so much of what I can and can't do. I hate the fact that it's on my mind so frequently these days... that it consumes so much of my waking time. I hate having to be extremely careful on what I buy. I hate having to pass by deals and things I need because I can't afford them. I hate having Andy buy me things because I can't pay for them myself without going further in debt. I hate it.

[sigh]

Nothing I can do about it for now... I'm making more at this job than I'll probably make at my next one... although by then hopefully Andy will be working so that'll help. I just... I'm so sick of being broke while surrounded by people that, almost without effort, could help me NOT be broke but won't for whatever reason. I won't ask... it's not my place... by it would be nice if they offered. Oh well... one step at a time.